I have been waiting with this entry until the Holiday season and ‘remorse period’ was over because it means a lot more to me than just ‘the time of the year’.
I owe an apology, a huge apology to my (former) colleague for ever having doubted his honesty at times, even after we had a great chat some week ago.
It was a difficult situation and many people ‘close’ to us have done their best to abuse all possible options. Although, pessimistic as I usually am towards people and knew they were looking to find their foothold against one of us, I did not see the signs coming, but they were trying to drive us apart(1).
It was a very emotional road, a rollercoaster bigger than most attraction parks offer, and we both committed a lot to the cause. Driven in our commitment we initially grew apart. Grew apart after an awesome and very promising first contact. Sometimes it’s just the way life goes. It is sad that I did not always see the road they tried to walk, thus allowing them to abuse a possible split between us, worse even thus allowing me not to believe 200% in You.
Still, and most important of all, even though the road we walked together was very ‘cobbly’ at times, we did an awesome job and I am sure you will do an even better job as time moves off. You are the right guy for this project and you will succeed. I regret not to be able to be there and side with you in the future, but hope our professional roads will continue to collaborate, not just at national meetings.
The gift some months ago was not just ‘something’, it was a sincerely meant present, a present because you believed in me and gave me a chance although I probably was the least qualified for the job. When we first met I immediately ‘sensed’ you. Since then many disruptive things have happened and I forgot to ignore them, ignore them like I did to initial doubts I might have had about our collaboration and ignoring those doubts was the right thing to do because they were plainly stupid.
One thing I have learned over last months: no matter how rough the road together might have been at times, from the start there were great dynamics between us and last weeks have shown that ‘they’ were/are wrong in their arguments.
Right now I only have one dream: I hope that no matter what might happen to you, bother you, annoy you, that if some day you need help/assistance you will let me know and allow me to help, advise you.
P.S.: I will not accept any linguistic analysis from your partner, I bet her knowledge is not focused on people writing in their fourth language :P
I might come back to her if one day I need an editor for a great blogging gig ;)
- And they somehow succeeded(↩)
