Am I Famous Now…

Pre post :: this is a moment of reflexion about this blog and no worked post, move on if it annoys you, thank you-

/reflexion Mode ON
Why am I doing this ? I have been blogging since more then 3 months now and wrote more as 100 posts already. My blog has had nice periods with nice visitors numbers, up to 230/daily and lots of posts had around 20 comments each. Did I enjoy it ? Yes I surely did. Did I have fun. Yes, definately. Was it what I wanted ? No not 100%. First I got problems with my job. Second I got a number of dumbfucks commenting here. Third well I don’t know, but I surely ‘flattened’ my level, my public thoughts. This blog should have been something like sarcasm and my own fun. Also some of my ‘comedy’ friends from Germany have been watching. What happened ? Some day this blog turned into a ‘Battle of the Blogs’ satire and people liked it. Yes I admit it was fun writing those jokes, but… Did I make an error ? Where they too ‘flat’ ? Was it too much of slapstick ?Did I become too soft ? Where was the ’spanking’ in those posts ? Why did people not realise that it was all meant to be ‘rougher’ ? Were it my writing ’skills’ who abandonned me for a while ? How come I suddenly had a ‘fanclub’ ? Was it because I hung out often at the Shoutbox and was nice there ? Yes my behaviour in communities is most of time different from my person. If I am new, I will check the atmosphere and change, like a perfect chameleon, my behaviour. I will become one of them, an error I make all the time. Luckily this doesn’t happen to me IRL. But online, I always need quite some time to become ‘myself’. Once I get more snarky and less ‘acceptable’ to everything I see, well you see the flies drop. And so did happen to this blog. I pissed some people of, only a few days after other people called me the new ‘Godfather’. Well bad luck, this is how I am, how much I like groups. You see the problem is in groups humans become sheep. And I just hate sheep. Don’t you have an individuality ? Sorry. Go for a walk and look for your person. But to be honest, actually I really am a nice guy. Just people who know me know that I won’t shuttup and I am glad I don’t. I am myself. Franky. A ’sharp’ non-bitter but rough person. Someone who is surviving since more then 30 years. Someone who made quite some ennemies, just because he is honest…
/reflexion Mode OFF

And now go visit my renter A Journey across the Pond. Even if you don’t like reading, although it IS worth it, go over there and check out his template. Gigotti, I hope you have ‘nice holidays’.

Edit after first comment.
After having read the first comment (thank you gigotti) I want to make something clear. I have a good life, I enjoy life and I really enjoy my plans for next year. It is just… erm, the past made me ‘hate’ human beings. Animals calling themselves ‘humans’. Who are we to say we are smarter actually ? No I just hate all those hypocrites who forget to build an own opinion. I have never been a person who ‘looks’ for friends. Friendship grows, it is a thing you can’t ‘push’, it just happens. If you all read (or have read it) this post you understand life is a ’shield up situation’ for me. And I like it like that. But at least I look at myself in the mirror when I get out of bed, and think ‘who is that guy’. And at the end of the day, most of time, I go to sleep in peace… in peace with myself. How many people take this time for themselves, this time for reflexion and enjoy the same peace ?