For the first time in my live I live a strange situation. For the first time in my life I know that I have (will have in some days) quite some money but I have nothing going on right at the moment.
I have always had projects, and work… lots of work.
Right now I have lots of work, just as usual, but no projects.
It feels strange.
Every project I have had in the last 18 months is gone. As well personal as professional. I have given myself totally at work and for an own project, for my new company.
The company didn’t work as a team.
I left.
The charity doesn’t exhaust me, I can think a lot but everything can be resumed with old-fashioned against ultra-modern. It is a lonely and sad fight. My colleagues are my friends so we don’t push too much. There is no competition at all. Suddenly I miss this. No one wants to be the best, no one wants the charity to grow. Everyone is happy with the status quo. Except for me.
Design is not in a hurry. I have time. And now even money without having invested it in some project.
The cocktail book isn’t really a challenge. I could technically write it within 2 weeks, but what would life be without a deadline?
Privately, last 2 years have been a failure. I enjoy my withdrawal from barlife. I enjoy my withdrawal from fulltime nerdism.
Emotionally was a ruin. I have invested several times and got leeched time after time. Now I don’t bother anymore.
Therefore I just started downloading the World of Warcraft trial to check the hardware performance.
Will I get screwed now? Am I screwed now?
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1 Danalyn // Oct 20, 2006 at 1:38 pm// View all comments by Danalyn //
If it makes you feel any better, you have nothing I want to leech. ;)