Last two, three weeks have been really bad. A lot of personal stuff going on. Lots of work. I never thought some ‘friends’ could be that important for a business. Where I had thought of having to struggle for work, I got a kick in the ass. A major one. One I needed.
I was sinking… sinking in a pathetic hole of thoughts. Everything was good to procastinate (I’ve always wanted to use that word in a post). Sadly it wasn’t procastinating. I have been analyzing my last 5 years Just thinking. Thinking about Germany and the UK. About the US. What will come now? I don’t know.
Life will start over. Once more. Is it the fourth, fifth, eleventh or seventeenth time, I honestly don’t know it anymore. It is starting to annoy me. One day I really want to be stable, stable in everything I do. Just like I did with this blog. Once more I caught up with myself.
Always on the run and never very consistent.
Above quote was part of my ‘about me’ at blugger from the first day. Almost 8 months I updated this blog on a very regular base and I really enjoyed it. I surprized myself. I had fun blogging. Discovered some really amazing people I’ld definately get on with in real life. Discovered even more people of pathetic whining quality and guess I am lucky having seen only a small corner of blogland. Other people were a real fun time. Sadly I discovered blogland is totally real life. Hypocrisy and cliques, two things I noticed most. Two of the things I really dislike in life. Two things that made a solitarian out of me.
Time to move on. This blog will be updated less regularly, or will take a ‘new turn’. Important decisions have been made in the last days, hours. I will catch up with all the work I’ve put aside lately. I can’t really catch up with the last week of posts I haven’t read. Marking all posts read in my feedreader will be easier.
Tonight will be horrible, tomorrow I will feel ‘new’ again. Life goes on.
Tomorrow.
Thank you blog, you were a good friend over those months. CSS (Cascading Style Sheets)-Reboot is coming. You’ll get a new face. Probably a ‘new person’ as well. Hope you’ll enjoy it.
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1 suki // Apr 26, 2006 at 5:28 am// View all comments by suki //
Aww, I’m sad.
2 Johnny Wadd // Apr 26, 2006 at 7:27 am// View all comments by Johnny Wadd //
If your looking to sell, i know some load consolidaters.
3 swan_pr // Apr 26, 2006 at 4:02 pm// View all comments by swan_pr //
that was good and honest. thank you. good luck.
4 T. // Apr 26, 2006 at 4:33 pm// View all comments by T. //
I tried to make a comment and I don’t know where it went. Grrr. Anyways, I hope you stick around and I hope your personal issues work out for you.
5 Cat // Apr 27, 2006 at 2:14 pm// View all comments by Cat //
I would like to see you stick around but I also know that personal issues arise that need taking care of. I will keep an eye on your blog and watch for updates. I hope you’re able to sort through things.
We miss ya.
6 Franky // Apr 27, 2006 at 9:04 pm// View all comments by Franky //
Thanks people, and no worries I am not dead yet. Maybe I might have to piss off some people to feel better hehe.